i wish i could stop binging....i wish i could control myself when i feel hungry and i know im not....i wish i wouldnt feel so bad when i do......i wish i could stop thinking about trying to lose weight.....i wish i would stop hating myself over stupid things, i wish i could leave the past behind me......i wish i wouldnt think about purging....i wish i would stop thinking about how im a failure.....i wish i wish i wish.....i wish i wasnt overweight, i wish i would stop feeling bad and ugly cause i am overweight.....i wish i were healthy.... i wish i could please everyone.....i wish you would be proud of me.....i wish i was good enough....i wish you would love me.....i wish i wasnt a failure......i wish i could be your beautiful, smart, intelligent, artistic, happy, daughter that is the exact image of you.......but im sorry i cant be that for you, but if i could i would give anything to try........but it hurts so bad.....

>.<

why does this stuff bother me so bad?  >.<   i dont want to care about it anymore.............

i need to start writing again..........

hey sorry its been so long.....

im trying to keep up w/ these things but theres too much going on

um yeah,

dont know if anyone reads this

eh

i like zoombinies